It wasn't until recently; I took my psychologist's suggestion to give brain training a try. On 12-17-09 I was scheduled to see if Brainwave optimization works. I wasn't going to participate unless I was guaranteed improvement in my motor skills and substance abuse problems, as those were the primary factors to my chronic depression. I was convinced to have this non-invasive procedure performed on me. My father decided to help me come up with the money in these desperate measures. . After the treatment, the results were breathtaking. The improvement in the occipital region of my brain meant my vision became more in sync. It was like comparing my old vision to a box T.V. and my new eye sight to a plasma screen. I am walking with better gait and balance. I speak more clearly and with more intonation. This means I can swallow without putting myself at risk for choking. No longer dehydrated or struggling with low energy. My sleep has improved and my dreams are no longer pertaining to drug use, as they were before. My coordination allows me to run without tripping, play drums with a steady beat and cook without cutting myself, for a change. My dysphasia is gone, allowing me to make facial expressions and be a character again. My memory has improved drastically. I used to forget the water running and the stove on all the time. Now I'm studying for my nursing boards and have confidence that I will pass this time around. Overall, this procedure gave me results beyond my expectations. It helped me beat my physical and mental disability. My brain tells my body what it needs. No longer do I let my actions condition my brain with the things I know I don't need. Does my body or my brain still crave stimulants? Honestly, I do think about it but I don't have a desire to act upon smoking, drinking, drugging or fighting with my disease of addiction. Simple sugars and salts, in excess do not agree with my body, in the same way that pessimism does. I just crave what my body needs; fruits vegetables protein, water fresh air and laughter. It may sound too simple but it was the one thing I had lacking all this time; A partnershipbetween my brain and my body, in complete serenity.